Saturday, January 16, 2010

Saying Goodbye

Gotta phone call from my older brother while at work yesterday alertin' me to the fact that my father was once again hospitalized in CT 'n that he wasn't doin' well at all. After listenin' to all the medical details about what was goin' on with my dad I informed my brother that I'd be on a Saturday mornin' train with the kids and we'd get up to Stamford to see him.

I never did getta chance to see him today, nor did I getta chance to tell him one last time that I love him or say goodbye to him.

My father passed away at 1:15 this mornin'.

The only positive thing outta this whole negative is that my dad is now back where he belongs...he's back with the one 'n only true love of his life, my mom, the woman to whom he was married 'n still madly in love with for 55 years. Seein' her again was his only desire since she passed in April, 2009....and in my heart o' hearts I KNOW that they are together again 'n will be forever, and for that I am extremely grateful.

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Dear Dad,

I know I've caused you an awful lotta heartache 'n pain for the past 40 years, 'n that you 'n Mom constantly worried 'n prayed for me every single day. I know we didn't have the best or even the closest father/daughter relationship, 'n at times we were even downright mean 'n nasty to each other, yet for that 'n for so much more, you always forgave me. As the years went by 'n I had children of my own, our relationship grew better....grew stronger....'n eventually notta day went by that I didn't love you, think about you, 'n wish that you could be with us forever. I may notta always been the best of daughters Dad, but I want you to know that you were always the best of fathers. I also want you to know that I will always love you 'n that you will never ever be forgotten.

Now you can strum on your guitar 'n serenade Mom up in Heaven for all eternity. Rest in peace, my dearest Daddy. I do love you.

Your one 'n only daughter, Donna Jean

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13 comments:

Lou said...

So sorry for you loss DonnaJean.

Punch said...

This is a nice tribute to your father. I too and sadden by your loss. As you said he is happy, we the living are sad. Take care of yourself.

Lady Ridesalot said...

I'm very sorry Donna Jean... your tribute was indeed a very nice way to say goodbye to your dad. Don't feel bad for not being able to tell him goodbye... he knows.
Your parents are together again... singin' and dancin'. Heaven is overflowing with joy!
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care my friend.

Jennifer Brindley said...

<3 Aww, honey - I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

Sheila Mitchell said...

Oh Donna, I'm so sorry. He is in a better place, & don't beat yourself up for things left unsaid! Time is on your side & cherish each moment of it! Hang in there Lady, you are a strong one!

WooleyBugger said...

Sorry Donna for you and your families loss. He's gotta be looking back at you smilin.

RazorsEdge2112 said...

That was a great thing you wrote to your dad. I am sure he has read it.

My thoughts are with you and your family, Donna Jean.

biker baby said...

Very sorry for your loss.
Try not to think about the unpleasant and remember the good times. That's what I would want from my kids.

bobskoot said...

Donna Jean:

I am so saddened for your loss and the fact that you were not there in person to say goodbye.

at least you have good memories to remember.

take care

bob
bobskoot: wet coast scootin

Willy D said...

Very nice letter to your Dad. Go hug your kids and remember the good times and the bad. You have to have both in order to experience the whole.

Webster World said...

Donna Jean your Dad knew to the end the love you each had. Just as you do and forgive your kids. So don't bet yourself up he would not want that.

"Joker" said...

That was really nice and from the heart...choked old Joker up a bit even. Like the others say, don't worry...he knows. I didn't get to really say goodbye to my dad either...at least not the way I'd have liked. But, I did get to do the talking, and always wished he'd have heard. Then again, like the others said, he heard. I guess that's the best we could do.

Sorry about your Dad's passing.

biker baby said...

Hey there, Haven't heard from you, I sure hope you're getting through the rough spots OK. I've lost allot of family and I know what you're going through. Maybe some blogging would be some good therapy. hang in there and know that I'm thinking about you.